Well I certainly haven’t kept up my commitment to doing this regularly! Haha. Oops. However, I HAVE kept up my commitment to trying to lose weight and be healthier. After two weeks on Weight Watchers’ online program, I am down 1.6 pounds! It doesn’t seem like much but it’s a great start and hopefully my progress will continue just as successfully. I can’t imagine myself at my ideal weight but I think it’s feasible. It will take some time and lots of hard work but I am starting to believe that I can really accomplish it.
It’s amazing to me how much emphasis our society puts on looks and weight, etc. I think it’s sort of a catch 22 because I don’t feel I am “obese” as the Body Mass Index states I am, yet I know I could stand to be quite a bit healthier.
In other news I am sick with a nasty cold and trying to get better as fast as I can so that I look decent for the portrait with my husband’s family this weekend. Gah!
I’ve been overweight for practically my entire life. I suppose I was average through elementary school but even then I was never one of the little skinny girls. It runs in my family, so I suppose the bright side (if there can be one here!) is that I’m not the only one. I’ve been trying to lose weight almost ever since I can remember. I used to go on 4 mile walks with my mom and her friend in the summer. In high school I prided myself on having awesome lower body strength. When the girls worked out in the weight room for gym class, I was always in the top few when we did contests for who could lift the most weight on the “sled.” My arms were also in fairly decent shape – being a drum major does that for you automatically! But when it came to running the mile, forget it – I was always at the back of the crowd.
As a college freshman, I played tennis once in a while, though I was horrible at it. Other than that, I was pretty lazy! Now I go to the gym 4 or 5 times a week for an hour each time. I have Richard Simmons videos at home, I have ankle weights and I have small dumbbells. But am I getting anywhere? No. In fact, if anything, I am GAINING weight. Slowly but surely.
I know that my problem is food. I have next to no will power when it comes to eating right. Plus, when I am home by myself, I snack endlessly, and it’s not often on healthy snacks. If I could only overcome my obsession with food, I believe I would be losing weight like nobody’s business. I don’t think my family has a food culture any more than other families I know, so I can’t blame it on that. It’s just the way I am, I suppose.
It’s really unfair that losing weight is so difficult…..but it is said that nothing worth having is easy. I guess I just have to buckle down and figure out ways to help myself. Help, self!!
I’ve been toying with this blog thing for a while and never really did much with it. So, here I am, trying to commit to actually posting on a regular basis! I have a problem with commitment sometimes. I get really into something for a while and then I lose interest and drop it. However, I think blogging could be therapeutic for me, and maybe it will help me be better at this non-committal thing.
I don’t have anything particular to report on today, just putting it out there that I am going to try to do this regularly from now on. It’s a small step and might seem silly, but here I go!
