Slowly But Surely

Well I certainly haven’t kept up my commitment to doing this regularly!  Haha.  Oops.  However, I HAVE kept up my commitment to trying to lose weight and be healthier.  After two weeks on Weight Watchers’ online program, I am down 1.6 pounds!  It doesn’t seem like much but it’s a great start and hopefully my progress will continue just as successfully.  I can’t imagine myself at my ideal weight but I think it’s feasible.  It will take some time and lots of hard work but I am starting to believe that I can really accomplish it.

It’s amazing to me how much emphasis our society puts on looks and weight, etc.  I think it’s sort of a catch 22 because I don’t feel I am “obese” as the Body Mass Index states I am, yet I know I could stand to be quite a bit healthier. 

In other news I am sick with a nasty cold and trying to get better as fast as I can so that I look decent for the portrait with my husband’s family this weekend.  Gah!

It’s Not Easy Being Green

I’ve been overweight for practically my entire life.  I suppose I was average through elementary school but even then I was never one of the little skinny girls.  It runs in my family, so I suppose the bright side (if there can be one here!) is that I’m not the only one.  I’ve been trying to lose weight almost ever since I can remember.  I used to go on 4 mile walks with my mom and her friend in the summer.  In high school I prided myself on having awesome lower body strength.  When the girls worked out in the weight room for gym class, I was always in the top few when we did contests for who could lift the most weight on the “sled.”  My arms were also in fairly decent shape – being a drum major does that for you automatically!  But when it came to running the mile, forget it – I was always at the back of the crowd. 

As a college freshman, I played tennis once in a while, though I was horrible at it.  Other than that, I was pretty lazy!  Now I go to the gym 4 or 5 times a week for an hour each time.  I have Richard Simmons videos at home, I have ankle weights and I have small dumbbells.  But am I getting anywhere?  No.  In fact, if anything, I am GAINING weight.  Slowly but surely.

I know that my problem is food.  I have next to no will power when it comes to eating right.  Plus, when I am home by myself, I snack endlessly, and it’s not often on healthy snacks.  If I could only overcome my obsession with food, I believe I would be losing weight like nobody’s business.  I don’t think my family has a food culture any more than other families I know, so I can’t blame it on that.  It’s just the way I am, I suppose. 

It’s really unfair that losing weight is so difficult…..but it is said that nothing worth having is easy.  I guess I just have to buckle down and figure out ways to help myself.  Help, self!!

Commitment

I’ve been toying with this blog thing for a while and never really did much with it.  So, here I am, trying to commit to actually posting on a regular basis!  I have a problem with commitment sometimes.  I get really into something for a while and then I lose interest and drop it.  However, I think blogging could be therapeutic for me, and maybe it will help me be better at this non-committal thing. 

I don’t have anything particular to report on today, just putting it out there that I am going to try to do this regularly from now on.  It’s a small step and might seem silly, but here I go!